I know it's silly and very materialistic (?) but I can't get into the holiday spirit when I don't have money. I'm so stressed out about money, or lack there of, that the thought of putting up a tree just makes me panic. I hate it. And, it's the same every year. It doesn't get better. Same shit, different year. I read about all of these people out shopping for gifts, meanwhile I'm sitting at home wondering how I'm going to afford any gifts at all. My fault for going back to school instead of getting a job. But school will be over in 6 days, and I can start working again.
I have applied for two evening shift positions, which would work for now I guess. But I won't get to see JDRW at all.
Sigh.
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