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I have to be done. I don't want to be done. But really, I think it's time.

And, it sucks.

And, I can't understand why. Is it really just that the grass is always greener on the other side? It might be greener but it doesn't taste as sweet?

I just...I'm just not happy.

I'm afraid. Because what if I'm not happy without? What if I go through this metamorphosis and I'm still just unhappy? Is it possible?

All I know for sure, is I'm too worn out to try anymore. Doesn't that suck? To know that I was so excited and so "in" and now I've been worn down to this?

Pathetic, dontcha think?