Shhhhh.

So, I have a plan.  But I don't want to tell Magnum...even though I'm wicked excited...because I always feel like he doesn't believe in me.  Wait.  That's not right.   I believe, some where buried deep with in I believe Magnum expects me to fail.  Even if he never gives me any indication of that at all.  I'm sure it's rooted in my childhood and the fact that I never felt encouraged or got the appreciation I deserved from my mother.  She never made a big deal when I did something good...only when I did something not good.  So I expect Magnum to do that same, so as soon as I tell him something, I lose my passion for it, because in my mind, he expects me to fail, so I do.  Does that make any sense at all?

Anyway...I'm excited about my plan.  And rather then run it by Magnum, I'm going to plan it all out, and then tell him about it once it's in place.

I have an opportunity, while getting unemployment, to go back to school.  Granted, I won't be making near as much as I was while employed...but I know I can do it.

I've already mapped my schedule and I'm going tomorrow or Friday to meet an advisor. 

I'll get my Teaching Assistant Certification...and then after that I'll continue to work on my Bachelor's in Education.

Sounds good, doesn't it.  And, I'm already prepared for the winter blues, so that shouldn't be a problem this year.

Yay me.  Don't tell.  :)