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I'm married. We covered that in a previous blog. But, I like girls. A lot. Lucky for me, so does my husband. We have (in theory) an open relationship. I am unfair in how I handle the openness...and I know it. I have to have a girlfriend, and then, he can have one. Like, I don't want to sit at home while he's out with someone else, unless I have someone as well. Make sense?

Which isn't the point at all.

The point is, about 5 months ago, I "met" a girl. Actually, I met her at her work when she gave me some assistance. I don't know why I was instantly attracted to her...but I was.

And, what you'll learn about me, is...if I'm interested, I'll find out who you are and how I can get to know you better. It sounds like stalking...but really...it's just collecting info.

I guess that wasn't the point actually. This is:

I started talking to her, emailing & whatever.

Then we went out. Simple. Nothing big. She's 16 years younger than me. Which to me, doesn't really matter, but I guess to her it does. She also seems to have issues with my husband & my children who are almost her age.

I like her. A lot. On our second "non-date" (and after months of emailing, webcamming, chatting, texting) she invites me to her apartment. And I go. And we end up in bed. Nothing happened...except snuggling...and maybe a little tucking into warm places. But no making out or kissing or anything that could be mistaken for sexual anything.

Great.

Except she has this new potential girlfriend who lives a few hours away. Who may become her girlfriend as of tonight.

So, again, I'm still not to the point.

The point is, I think she likes me. Truly. But she refuses to give in to that. And it's infuriating. I understand, but at the same time, dammit!

I guess there really is no point, except that once again, I want what I don't think I can have.

And I want it.