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I used to have nightmares...a lot. I would have lucid dreams where my eyes were open, I could see the room around me, but I could not move or call out. A few times I've managed to say "wake me up" and the boy would wake me. In most nightmares, I am lost. Wait...I don't think that's right exactly. I'm not lost, but I can't find the boy. And, always, my phone doesn't work. In most of the dreams I try to call 911 and it doesn't work. What the hell is that about? But I haven't had any nightmares in a long long time...until...

Last night, actually this morning, sometime between 7:05 & 7:34, I managed to have 2 dreams. In the first, I was dreaming that I was trying to wake up, and the boy woke me up. Usually, in my dreams, I can say...this is a dream, you'll be alright. Except, this time, I thought I was awake because the boy had just woken me up from the dream.

Except, he hadn't.

So, I dream that we are at the mall. I'll just highlight the dream. There was a little korean girl named Ava, who took a liking to me. Then, there was a grandpa who was wrapping his very small grandson in this rubbery rope and then slinging him across the room. (wtf?) So, I go to find security to tell them, and I'm in the middle of the conversation, and the boy comes up and interrupts...and the security guards ignore me and go to take care of the boys issue. Which pissed me off. I was yelling at the boy and I walked away and told him he could find me when he was ready to apologize.

Anyway...as it turns out...he thinks I have the baby, and I think he has the baby, turns out, neither of us do. So, I'm trying to call people on my phone but it won't work and I'm crying and freaking out. And, then the boy uses his phone to call 911. I'm sitting on the bench and I start just screaming my daughters name...and she's in a dressing room and she answers. I am frantic telling her we lost the baby. She says..."He's over at Ponderosa, eating. I told him to wait there." So I run around the corner and I am screaming his name...and there he is sitting at a table eating macaroni and cheese.

It was the best feeling in the world to have him in my arms and kiss him.

When I woke up, I was sweating so much that my hair was wet.

Weird stuff huh? Ponderosa? Weird.