Lessons.

When am I going to learn to listen to Ney.

She told me not to...and I did.  And, now I just feel kinda stupid.

Eh.

Live and learn.

Fit.

O.  Wow. 

Really those are the only words. 

I think too much.  I have to fit people in, to make sense of what the point is...before I can get comfortable with moving forward. 

I ended up in her bed.  :)  Warm & cozy much?

And, yes, friends & exes, I still use the famous phrase:  Get Off Me!

Butterflies.

Ugh.  Wtf am I doing?

She texted me yesterday...we chatted a lil yesterday...I saw her at work this morning...and had lunch with her this afternoon.  The worst part is...it's like we were never apart.  So, it's happening so easily.  Too fast?  I think?

I asked her, once again, what she wants from me.  She said she doesn't want a relationship right now.  Of course, then she asked what I wanted from her. 

It's too easy to get sucked in by her.  I told her that in the past it's seem a bit one sided.  I mean it's sooo obvious that I want...whatever it is I want...but it's not so obvious what she wants with me. 

I guess what I'd want from her, for starters, would be that she reciprocate.  I don't like feeling like I'm chasing her.  And, for the record, this time, I haven't been chasing her.  I simply sent her a message asking that we be able to talk.  I wanted to talk to her about how we left things last time.  Two days later (yesterday) she texted me.  Today she asked if I wanted to have lunch with her. 

If she was anyone else, I'd take it as it seems...like she wants to hang out with me, like she's interested in me, like this is the beginning of something with potential, like she's attracted to me.  Like she wants me.  :) 

She gives me butterflies.  The last real person to give me butterflies like that was TJ. 

And, if I go to her apartment, there is no doubt in my mind that I will end up in her bed.  :) 

In a perfect world, she'd be my girlfriend.  I wouldn't have to share.  However, considering I'm married, to a man (o, no)...I could never ask her to be my girlfriend. 

Which brings me back to...wtf am I doing?  What's the point? 

As JD so perfectly put it...maybe I just let it be what it is. 

O, and a final note.  After lunch I told her she gives me butterflies.  Her reply?  She got butterlies too and it's been a long time since she's had those.

She's back.  Now what?

IceIceBaby.

Who wants to guess who texted me today?  :)

Uh-huh bitches. 

Guess we'll see how it goes this time.  I did tell her that I was uhappy about how she treated me last time.  She apologized.  Works for me. 

I also asked Izzy out today.  Haven't heard back yet.  We shall see.  (Funny that Izzy & Skye both have the same first names.)

Skye just makes my skin feel good.  I know it's crazy.  And, I usually don't want back in with someone who's pissed me off or hurt my feelings.  I've never been that way about her. 

BTW...welcome winter.  There was a thin layer of ice on my windshield this morning. 

And, I just looked at my spanish grade...the class average is 80%.  My grade is 187%.  WTF?  I mean, I'll take it...but I don't know what it means.

It's been a long time since I last spoke or chatted with Skye...we are chatting now on fb and it's just...I don't know...sorta like she never left...but cautious.

The fall just got a wee bit brighter. 

Yum.

Uninspired.

Today I am...uninspired.  Being uninspired causes me to also be cranky.  And, all of this is due to someone elses fuck up, and that pisses me off. 

And, I'm cold.

Sometimes just coming here to whine, inspires me to see things in a different light.  But right now, it aint workin'.  At all.

Ok, well I thought this would help.  :)

Candy.

HAHA...NOTE:  I write a blog and then I title it.  Well, I titled this Candy because I mentioned that the video below was candy...so then I decided to go back and give each section a candy lable.  :) 

Wow...so much to say...let start with the bitchyness first to get that out of the way...then we'll get to the fun stuff.  This section would be those black and orange wrapped chewy peanut butter candies...I hate those.

The college screwed something up...miscommunication between different departments...and so now I have to wait another week for my loan check.  WTF people?  So, those people, who are employed and get a paycheck (for doing a job they didn't do properly) each week screwed my paperwork up so that I have to scrape and scrimp for yet another week?   It just pisses me off so much...but at least I have the actual date of when I'll get it now.  Red Hots.

Now the fun stuff...

Boys.  They are on my mind.  Perhaps I should say men...haha.  I keep dreaming about them.  I wake up all cozy.  My dreams overall have been nice lately.  If you are my facebook friend...check out the 2 Tylers on my friends list.  Pure beauty.  Chocolate filled with creamy smooth caramel.

I'm doing excellent in school.  I got a 100 on my last Spanish quiz.  Get Out!  Me?  Doing well in a foreign language class when I seriously need Magnum to translate if someone on TV is talking with a british accent?  But, alas, it is true.  My other classes are all Early Childhood Education related...and of course I'm rockin' those.  :)  Pop Rocks.

I know this is just a general skim the surface blog.  I'm working on a Skye blog...I'm just not ready to put it out there yet.  Butterscotch that you almost get done sucking on...and then you accidently swallow it and start to choke.

And finally, apparently if you write about Courtney Jensen in your blog...people come to read it.  For the love of pete...all of the visitors to my blog entry title TastesLikeChicken come there because they've googled Courtney Jensen and my blog shows up.  So, if you got here, because I'm blogging about Courtney Jensen, please follow me...I do write about her often.  And just to tempt you further here's a lil candy (chocolate covered cherry) for you:

 Thank you.  And have a wonderful delicious candy filled day.

Quickie.

This week has been rough moneywise.  My check should be here sometime between today and midweek next week.  I'm dyin' over here dammit!

A few nights ago I dreamed about one of Magnum's nephews...omg.  The boy is beautiful.  (And by boy, I mean he's like...25 or something.)  It wasn't a sexual dream it was a cozy dream.  And he's one of those people that are always warm.  Like if you sit next to him at dinner you can feel the heat coming off of his body.  Hubba.

I recently discovered that Skye is back.  Of course, she wasn't very nice to me just before she moved, so maybe that'll still be the case.  Sucks tho.  She's my fav.

I also dreamed about Ney & Two in the same dream.  Again, it wasn't sexual but it was cozy and comfortable.  Grrrr.  I hate October!

And, that's all I've got time for now because I have to get my ass movin...gotz to get to kollege.  :)