Grrr.

I don't do a lot of crying.  It's just not my style.  But for some reason, this morning, I'm all water works. 

The word I use is frustrated...because I just don't know what else to say.

Magnum & I can't seem to get on a the same page about the teenagers.  I want us to be together in our decisions, not against one another.  I need his support, not his criticism or his doubt.  Not to even mention the teenagers father...what a disappointment he is. 

And, Magnum has a trip today and I can't go with him and it makes me sad and mad.  When I first moved here, he always took me on his trips, now he never does.

Then, it's still fucking winter.  :)  I know, you live in upstate ny you get 9 months of freakin' winter...but dammit...I need to open the doors and windows and get some fresh air in this house.  And I want to see green grass.  Dammit.

And there's a new girl...or not.  I dunno.  I'm trying to keep an open mind.  Of all of the girls I've ever chatted with or dated, she seems more like me than most of them.  Which could be fun.  Or not so much.  Of course, she's not bi or poly, so I'm swimming upstream with this one.  In a perfect world I'd meet a girl who Magnum would get along with, and they would both love me.  :)  But we all know, the world's not perfect.

See, I'm even too frustrated to write.

But, lets end this blog with some positive thoughts...

The sun is shining.  I'm not sick.  It's almost the weekend.  Yeah, I'm way too frustrated for this postive crap.  :)