Unrest.

There's this feeling I have...and I've been trying to put my finger on it.  :)  It's a feeling of unrest.  A feeling of discontent?  Like, I'm waiting, but I don't know what I'm waiting for?  And I don't want to wait anymore.

I mean,  I should be all sunshine & rainbows.  The sun is shining, my job is good, my family is good, my Magnum is good.  I should just be all sparkles. 

So, wtf?  Why am I not all sparkles dammit?

I'm sure it's just winter blahs.  I guess I'll make a list of things I'd like to accomplish, that always helps.  :)

My new favorite color is torquoise.  I know that's random, but I'm in love with it!

So, here's a little bit of funny for ya...about the new girl.  We were going pretty steady for about a week, texting, chatting, emailing.  Then she got all wrapped up in "you have a husband & I've been there and done that and I don't want to do it again".  So, yesterday we went back and forth over her not being able to understand that I am not one of those other women she's dated and it isn't fair to judge me by that, and me not being able to understand that she's been hurt by married women and she doesn't want to go down that path again.  Blah blah blah.

So, I say, fine.  The ball's in your court.  Do with it what you will.  Play or don't play.  And, I just left it at that.

I swear, five minutes later I get this email saying she was going to go to roller derby on Saturday, and who wants to go with her (it was a mass send).  So, neway...she already knows I go to roller derby.  Ha.  And, this morning, I got a reply to an email I sent to her on Sunday asking if she wanted to go with me to see a movie.  So, is she trying to play???  :)  Women are so damn complicated.  As soon as I gave up trying to prove my point, she's all over it.  :) 

I'm tired.  All day long I'm tired.  Then at night, usually around 9pm, my energy kicks in and I want to clean and do all kindsa stuff.  And to sleep, after having been dragging ass all day, I have to take sleep meds.  So I started thinking, maybe I'm nocturnal.  I've always been a sleep during the day girl and be wide awake at night.  So, who made the rule that we are not nocturnal?  Maybe some of us humans are nocturnal by nature but society forces us to be diurnal? 

Of course, then I watched House last night and the "subject" on there was nocturnal because she had some disease.  :)  Pfffftttt.

On Friday I get to go get poked.  Fun times.

That's all I got for now. 

Peace.