Lostit.

I've lost it.  And, I don't know when or why, but it's gone.

My MoJo.  Gone.  Vanished.  Poof.

I went from being this cocky confident girl to being...not.  :)  I dunno what happened.  I think it's partly the Two thing.  She's always there in the corners, like a nasty hairy spider just waiting to pounce.  But, there has to be more to the loss of my MoJo.    But what?

I think mostly, I just feel a lil lost.  I'm just here, filling space and time without a purpose or a passion. 

A few weekends ago, I saw a friend.  She is so fucking cozy to me, that it makes me ache.  And it's not an ache like, I want to throw her down and do naughty things, it's an ache to snuggle.  That's all.  Just snuggle.  Be warm and cozy and snuggly.  I miss that.  And, yeah, I get that from Magnum, but it's not the same.  It's not the same as it was before Two, and it's not the same as it is with a woman.  And, this weather...oy.  Makes the need to snuggle a cozy comfortable female body so much worse. 

So, here I am, with no MoJo, and this need for warmth and comfort.  It's crappy irony.  Dammit.