Forty?

I am freaking out a little because I'm going to be 40, and I'm no where in life.  Seriously it gives me a panic attack.  I cried my head off at Magnum last night...and he was great...said all the right things to make me feel better.  But omg, I'm freaking out a little.

I'm completely lazy these days.  I literally sleep all day and I have no energy and no focus and it's driving me insane.  And I just don't know what to do about it.  I don't want Walter to think I'm nuts.  What do I do go to him and say...Yo, Walt-I sleep all day. Help?  It is winter and I am not getting any sunshine at all.  There's also no snow so it's not even pretty outside...just grey and brown and ugly.  I have no appetite.  I mean, come on.  Who am I if I can't even get excited about food?  I'm blah to the nth degree.

School doesn't start for another few weeks...so I have two weeks or so to just...do what?  I should be organizing and cleaning and preparing...all I have is time.  And, I'm not doing anything.  WTF?

I don't even have a positive note here.   I'm too blah for positive today.  Check back tomorrow.