+ or -

So, if you are my friend, and you are a positive force in my life, I'm gonna keep you around and do what I can to be a positive force in yours.

But I was thinking earlier, that I have some friends who will be my friends forever.  We've bonded, we've made it through good & bad, and that's what I want in my life.  That's why I am so picky about who I let "in".  And, that number does grow, but very very gradually.

I'm not a nice girl.  I know this.  I'm moody and crabby and if I don't like you or if you piss me off, guess what, you know it.  But the thing is, I think I'm always open to the thought of liking just about anyone.  But, you have to make an impression, to hold my interest.  And, if you can make it past all of the bullshit I try to hide behind, then you'll find me.  And, me is good to find.

Then there are those other people.  The ones that I call "friend" but really, they aren't?  We all have those right?  We'll say "oh, that's my friend so & so..." but really you don't know them?  And, really, come to think of it, you really have nothing in common...and really they kinda get on your nerves. 

What's the point?

It's out with the negative & in with the positive.

If you are a positive force in my life.  You are in.  If you are a negative force, not so much.

But thank you for playing.

Oh, fun.

So, a few days ago Pawn tagged me and asked me if I was still collecting glasses (over the summer I collected some Coke glasses, which just sit around now and collect dust) because she had one she was "saving" for me.  So I told her I really didn't want it.  She continued to say she was gonna be in the area and she could just drop it off.  Yeah, I wasn't interested.  In the glass.  Or her stopping by.

So, she goes to Magnum.  She tells him she's thinking of stopping by.  She and Magnum are still chummy. 

Long story longer, Pawn shows up today, walks right in my front door without knocking. 

The worst part for me was that I had a plan for the day, and it got fucked up because I had to play nice with someone I really don't want to play nice with.

And the frosting on the cake?  She made sure to mention her relationship with Ogre. 

Fun times on the farm.

Bachelor.

So.  This is what I'm gonna be when I grow up.  Am I crazy???  I definately don't think I'll get bored.  I've never really done anything like this, so it will challenge me. 

I am sooooooooooo freakin' excited.

Drawing.

I totally registered for "Intro To Drawing" last night.  This should be fun.

Second.

My second resolution...

If you want me, you know where to find me.  I'm tired of being the wooer.  If you want me, you have to woo me. 

So, get on it.

Yes, I mean you.

One Resolution.

I've only got one resolution so far, but there will be more.

1.  Get Organized.  I know this is a resolution every year, but really, I need  to get organized.  Make places for things, put them in their places....we have tons of room in this house but no organization. 

One down.  How many more to go??

Focus.

I've been trying to write this blog for a while, but I lack focus.  :)  I open my blog and see my friends blogs and start reading...and so on and on...and by the time I get back to my blog...well you see where that's going, right?

I'm going to work on my resolutions.  They will be posted soon.

Our trip to Illinois was awesome.  Anyone who has never been to St. Louis just doesn't know what they are  missing.  It is the most amazing city ever.  And they have this museum.  If you ever go to St. Louis, you need to go there.  There's more to write about the trip, but I need to put it together in my head before I write.

We got a Wii.  Well, technically JDRW got a Wii for a combo Christmas/Birthday Gift.  My brother had one at his house, and JDRW fell in love.  I must admit, I like it too, although the only game I've played is Bowling.  (I'm excited about getting my own controller though.)

I got to see Ney.  I begged her to come home with me.  She refused.  Sadface.

My kids are amazing.  And, one of two things is going to happen soon.  Either we are going to figure out a way to move there, or the kids are moving back here.  I will never let them live with their father again.  Oh, and on that note, one night while we were there, BD texted Magnum and thanked him for being such a great dad.  It made me weepy.

Magnum and I got along awesomely.  And I think it had something to do with this:  When we are here, it feels like Me against Magnum & the world.  There it was Me & Magnum against the world.  We were a unit there.  Here, not so much.  But I really think he's working at being less impatient and crabassy.  And there is no Two in Illinois, and that alone makes me happy times a thousand.

And, that's all I got for now.