Done...blogged everyday for a month. Go me.
Happy Memorial Day Ya'll.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Gifts.
First of all, this has to be said...Mother Nature is an angry old cunt. :) And, ya know why? Because yesterday I realized that that bitch ruins every holiday for me. I don't want her fucking gifts. She sends them to me somewhere between 25th-1st...so lets take a look at some things. Christmas, 25th. Thanksgiving, generally falls in the 24-29 range. My birthday, 27th. Memorial Day, always falls in that range. Labor Day, sometimes falls in the range. Magnum's birthday, 29th. New Year's, 31st & 1st. I mean, really Lady?
In other news...
Yesterday never got better. I was a visciously angry. But at least I was aware of it. :) JDRW and I went out, and were home 1/2 hour later because I was too angry to even drive. I was afraid I'd start running people over. Magnum asked me, when he got home, if I was ok. I tried to explain to him that a big part of it is that I'm alone. Of course, he takes that personally so I have to try to explain. Then I tell him, and I'm a wife and mom an' everyone always needs something from me and they take take take and it wears me out. Again, he took it personally. But I gotta admit, he did ok about trying to make the day better. We went to dinner at a bbq place (which again, in NY is really a grilled place, you have to add the bbq sauce)...but it was really good. I had Brunswick Stew. I moaned everytime I took a bite. :) I was laughing and I said, I bet none of your other women have ever moaned when they ate. It was funny...until of course he said, yeah not while they ate. He's lucky I was totally into my food. :)
I have dreamed A LOT about Ogre over the past few weeks. And it's always the same kinda feeling. We are usually sitting on a couch or a bed and all I want to do is lay my head on his lap. It feels so content. In last nights dream...I was going to kiss him. But there were too many kids! :) I've always told Magnum Ogre reminded me of a softer gentler version of Magnum...so I'm attributing these dreams to my desire to have that feeling with Magnum again.
I also dreamed about my favorite roller girl and we were kissing. The details of that dream haven't come back to me fully yet...but if they do, I'll be sure to share.
There's more...but I've stuff to do right now.
In other news...
Yesterday never got better. I was a visciously angry. But at least I was aware of it. :) JDRW and I went out, and were home 1/2 hour later because I was too angry to even drive. I was afraid I'd start running people over. Magnum asked me, when he got home, if I was ok. I tried to explain to him that a big part of it is that I'm alone. Of course, he takes that personally so I have to try to explain. Then I tell him, and I'm a wife and mom an' everyone always needs something from me and they take take take and it wears me out. Again, he took it personally. But I gotta admit, he did ok about trying to make the day better. We went to dinner at a bbq place (which again, in NY is really a grilled place, you have to add the bbq sauce)...but it was really good. I had Brunswick Stew. I moaned everytime I took a bite. :) I was laughing and I said, I bet none of your other women have ever moaned when they ate. It was funny...until of course he said, yeah not while they ate. He's lucky I was totally into my food. :)
I have dreamed A LOT about Ogre over the past few weeks. And it's always the same kinda feeling. We are usually sitting on a couch or a bed and all I want to do is lay my head on his lap. It feels so content. In last nights dream...I was going to kiss him. But there were too many kids! :) I've always told Magnum Ogre reminded me of a softer gentler version of Magnum...so I'm attributing these dreams to my desire to have that feeling with Magnum again.
I also dreamed about my favorite roller girl and we were kissing. The details of that dream haven't come back to me fully yet...but if they do, I'll be sure to share.
There's more...but I've stuff to do right now.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Obstacles.
I wish I was at peace. I wish that I could wake up in the morning and love the fresh air coming through the window, the sweet scent of honeysuckle trickling in. I wish that I could just be...content...and happy. I want to wake up and be like Ahhhh, this is sweet.
Instead I'm a crabby fucking ass. It seems like everything I try to do is difficult. For instance, just now I was going to clean JDRW's room...and one of the daycare kids had pulled a drawer out of his dresser. So I just spent 10 minutes trying to get the fucker back in and on the track. And, now I'm just fuming. I had to walk out of the room, so that I could just breathe.
In other news...Magnum and I watched a movie the other night and the woman is divorced and all of her kids are at college and she walks into her house and it's quiet and clean. And I say, "fuck that would be so awesome". And I continue to elaborate on how awesome it would be. Then I notice Magnum is kinda quiet...and when I ask what's wrong...he doesn't answer. After a while he says, and he's on the verge of crying, that he can't imagine our house without me and JDRW in it.
Sigh. I told him he better be nicer to me then. I know that sounds mean...but it's honest.
Wow. I'm just totally hatin' today. Maybe I should just go back to bed.
Instead I'm a crabby fucking ass. It seems like everything I try to do is difficult. For instance, just now I was going to clean JDRW's room...and one of the daycare kids had pulled a drawer out of his dresser. So I just spent 10 minutes trying to get the fucker back in and on the track. And, now I'm just fuming. I had to walk out of the room, so that I could just breathe.
In other news...Magnum and I watched a movie the other night and the woman is divorced and all of her kids are at college and she walks into her house and it's quiet and clean. And I say, "fuck that would be so awesome". And I continue to elaborate on how awesome it would be. Then I notice Magnum is kinda quiet...and when I ask what's wrong...he doesn't answer. After a while he says, and he's on the verge of crying, that he can't imagine our house without me and JDRW in it.
Sigh. I told him he better be nicer to me then. I know that sounds mean...but it's honest.
Wow. I'm just totally hatin' today. Maybe I should just go back to bed.
MemorialDayMeaning.
I just read this, and now I feel kinda guilty for being excited for my 5 day weekend.
Day One of my weekend: Cleaned the bathroom for 2 hours.
Day Two of my weekend: Get woken up by the stupid fucking cat! Go to take the cat downstairs, and there's the bag of garbage I put by the door last night to be taken out...ripped into by the cat.
I clean the bathroom for 2 hours, and you can't run the garbage to the can on your way out the door? Oh, but wait...you moved the bag of garbage out of your way last night to get to your phone.
Grrrrrrr.
I was really really pissed this morning...at the cat, at the garbage, at the dog. Then I spent sometime on facebook, and that always manages to cheer me up. I roll my eye's at Two's status' regularly...she is just so predictable and really kinda pathetic. She always posts these dramatic status' so that everyone who doesn't already know how she is, will ask her about it....then when she's garnered the attention she desires, she'll answer. Or she'll hear about a "friend" who's sick or whatever and she'll post her status as to how devastated she is, and how she doesn't know how she's going to make it through this...so people are thinking she's on the brink of death...only to find out two days later...that her "friend" has the flu. I mean, I get that you are sad about your friends. That's fine. But maybe in the status you should mention who you're talking about, instead of letting people think you're dieing.
Yeah, yeah, if it bothers me why don't I just delete her from my friends? Because I'd rather know, then not know.
We had one hot day so far this year!!! I'm not complaining, at least we got one! It's been warm and I love it. I just think it's funny that we had this miserable hot humid 80 degree day, and Magnum was like, we can't spend the whole summer without the air conditioner...so he put it in...and it hasn't been hot ever since. I mean, it's been warm, but we certainly don't need air conditioning. But at least we got it in in case it does heat up!
I guess I'll go downstairs to clean stuff since I've been awake since 6 anyway.
Day One of my weekend: Cleaned the bathroom for 2 hours.
Day Two of my weekend: Get woken up by the stupid fucking cat! Go to take the cat downstairs, and there's the bag of garbage I put by the door last night to be taken out...ripped into by the cat.
I clean the bathroom for 2 hours, and you can't run the garbage to the can on your way out the door? Oh, but wait...you moved the bag of garbage out of your way last night to get to your phone.
Grrrrrrr.
I was really really pissed this morning...at the cat, at the garbage, at the dog. Then I spent sometime on facebook, and that always manages to cheer me up. I roll my eye's at Two's status' regularly...she is just so predictable and really kinda pathetic. She always posts these dramatic status' so that everyone who doesn't already know how she is, will ask her about it....then when she's garnered the attention she desires, she'll answer. Or she'll hear about a "friend" who's sick or whatever and she'll post her status as to how devastated she is, and how she doesn't know how she's going to make it through this...so people are thinking she's on the brink of death...only to find out two days later...that her "friend" has the flu. I mean, I get that you are sad about your friends. That's fine. But maybe in the status you should mention who you're talking about, instead of letting people think you're dieing.
Yeah, yeah, if it bothers me why don't I just delete her from my friends? Because I'd rather know, then not know.
We had one hot day so far this year!!! I'm not complaining, at least we got one! It's been warm and I love it. I just think it's funny that we had this miserable hot humid 80 degree day, and Magnum was like, we can't spend the whole summer without the air conditioner...so he put it in...and it hasn't been hot ever since. I mean, it's been warm, but we certainly don't need air conditioning. But at least we got it in in case it does heat up!
I guess I'll go downstairs to clean stuff since I've been awake since 6 anyway.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Misccrap.
5 Day Weekend, coming right up! Wow. It was only a 4 day, and then I remembered that I'm off on the 1st for JDRW's final kindergarten orientation. He gets to ride a school bus that day!
The plan is to clean the basement for our fun filled Memorial Day Weekend. We'll see how that goes.
And, I'm tired today because the fucking cat is crazy with trying to go outside and he sits at the window at the head of our bed and scratches at the wood and picks and bites and meows...grrrr. Then JDRW woke up with an earache. Poor baby. He's been one of the least sick kids I've ever seen, so I'll take an occasional cold or earache.
That's all I'm gonna write for now.
The plan is to clean the basement for our fun filled Memorial Day Weekend. We'll see how that goes.
And, I'm tired today because the fucking cat is crazy with trying to go outside and he sits at the window at the head of our bed and scratches at the wood and picks and bites and meows...grrrr. Then JDRW woke up with an earache. Poor baby. He's been one of the least sick kids I've ever seen, so I'll take an occasional cold or earache.
That's all I'm gonna write for now.
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