Gifts.

First of all, this has to be said...Mother Nature is an angry old cunt.  :)  And, ya know why?  Because yesterday I realized that that bitch ruins every holiday for me.  I don't want her fucking gifts.  She sends them to me somewhere between 25th-1st...so lets take a look at some things.  Christmas, 25th.  Thanksgiving, generally falls in the 24-29 range.  My birthday, 27th.  Memorial Day, always falls in that range.  Labor Day, sometimes falls in the range.  Magnum's birthday, 29th.  New Year's, 31st & 1st.  I mean, really Lady? 

In other news...

Yesterday never got better.  I was a visciously angry.  But at least I was aware of it.  :)  JDRW and I went out, and were home 1/2 hour later because I was too angry to even drive.  I was afraid I'd start running people over.  Magnum asked me, when he got home, if I was ok.  I tried to explain to him that a big part of it is that I'm alone.  Of course, he takes that personally so I have to try to explain.  Then I tell him, and I'm a wife and mom an' everyone always needs something from me and they take take take and it wears me out.  Again, he took it personally.  But I gotta admit, he did ok about trying to make the day better.  We went to dinner at a bbq place (which again, in NY is really a grilled place, you have to add the bbq sauce)...but it was really good.  I had Brunswick Stew.  I moaned everytime I took a bite.  :)  I was laughing and I said, I bet none of your other women have ever moaned when they ate.  It was funny...until of course he said, yeah not while they ate.  He's lucky I was totally into my food.  :)

I have dreamed A LOT about Ogre over the past few weeks.  And it's always the same kinda feeling.  We are usually sitting on a couch or a bed and all I want to do is lay my head on his lap.  It feels so content.  In last nights dream...I was going to kiss him.  But there were too many kids!  :)  I've always told Magnum Ogre reminded me of  a softer gentler version of Magnum...so I'm attributing these dreams to my desire to have that feeling with Magnum again. 

I also dreamed about my favorite roller girl and we were kissing.  The details of that dream haven't come back to me fully yet...but if they do, I'll be sure to share.

There's more...but I've stuff to do right now.