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Is it real or is it PMDD?

Anyone else but her, would be great. She is the only one I can't handle, but I can't seem to get her out of my life.

So, I'm here. Waiting for Magnum to get home. I wonder if I should go smell his car, check for signs of her. Should I call her right now? Would she answer?

Am, I just PMDDing? Or is there really something to worry about?

I feel like I'm sure she's with him right now. And, I've always had a knack for knowing things. So, in my head I think, you warned him. You told him if he saw her again, you'd leave. So why are you still here? The other part of me thinks, why does it matter? I mean really? Does it? I guess, the answer is, it matters, only because it hurts me. Is it enough to uproot my family? Disturb the peace? Or do I just sit back and be the wife, staying home to raise the kids, while the husband goes out and whores it up with the one person the wife has asked him not to?

All I have right now is this writing. It's keeping me calm. Helping me put things into perspective.

What to do...what to do?