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Today is Skye's birthday. I'm taking her out. She told me to surprise her. I'm not good at surprises.

And, I'm crabby as fuck. And tired. And I really don't want to go anywhere but to bed...except it's her 21st birthday and I can't not take her out.

The weather is shit. It was nice over the weekend and today it's just a dreary mess.

I need to start boxing. I could really beat the shit out of something right now. It would feel so good.

So, what the hell do I do to cheer myself up? I totally have a "what's the fucking point" attitude today. I know it'll pass. I'm usually so damn optimistic...but not today.

I could make a list. That usually cheers me up. Right?

Fine. A bucket list. Although I don't really like the concept because it makes death seem so real and I don't really like to think about death. Ugh.

So here it is:

Ten Things On My Bucket List:
1. Fucking graduate and get my Associates. Then my bachelors. Then my masters. Then my doctorate. I need to be Dr. Ella Noise!!!! Teach on a college level.
2. Show JDRW a real live on the beach starfish.
3. I changed my mind, this list is only depressing me....

So instead, lets go with:

Ten Random Things
1) Nope, not feeling this one either...

Um...

I got nothing...I need to go google for some inspiration...wait...

Fine...
Top 10 Favorite Words

1) Negate
2) Fruition
3) Convoluted
4) Discombobulated or however it's spelled.
5) Digress
6) My name spoken by certain people.
7) Buttercup
8) Dammit
9) Lithuanian Lime
10)Fibbonaci

It's weak & lame...but it's all I have the capacity for right now.