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Post #50. I better make this good.

Over the weekend, I decided to stop dating women for awhile. It just kind of occurred to me that I needed a break. So, here I am, not dating or seeing or stalking women. I never realize how exhausting it is, until I stop.

I saw Skye yesterday. She was kinda blah. I only saw her for a few seconds at her work. But as I was leaving she said "You look really good today." She's never really said anything like that to me. It made me smile. :)

As far as the "new" girl...I need to give her a name...let me think...Joy...so let's start this paragraph over...

As far as Joy goes...I'm not sure about her. I always "gauge" girls by whether I can imagine them doing certain things with me. One of those measures is cooking. Can I imagine Joy in my kitchen, flowing with me, helping me, working with me? Hmmm...yes I can. She told me one of her favorite things to cook is stir-fry. I didn't tell her that that was also one of my favorite things to cook because I didn't want to be one of those "OMG meee toooo" girls. But, in my head, that's exactly what I said. Another measure is whether I can see them outside getting dirty with me in my garden. And the answer...yes. She gardens flowers. So yeah, I can totally see her sweating and getting dirty with me. Another measure would be family. Can I see her fitting in with my family. Well, she has a family of her own. She has a husband and two boys that are 2 & 4, who I'm sure would fit in well with my baby. If Magnum wouldn't be such a hard head, he could probably get along with her husband. So, that measure is good as well. Oh, and I told her my fantasy about living together with lots of husbands and wives and kids and growing our own food and being a big ol' happy family. And, she liked that idea too! So, I guess in theory, she'd be a good "match". But, I'm not so sure she's that into me? And besides, I'm not dating girls anymore. Maybe that's good. Maybe that'll take some pressure off. Maybe I'll meet her, without the stress of dating. Maybe without that stress we'll just click. Chaknow?

In other news...

Today my body aches. I wish it was because I worked out too hard or cleaned to much. But it's not. Yesterday I started feeling achey, and this morning, it's only worse. I used to feel this way ALWAYS. My hips and my knees would ache constantly. Now, (and ever since I stopped drinking diet soda), I rarely have this sort of pain. So, I find myself wondering what I did. I must have eaten something that's triggered it. Of course, it's also PMS time and it's raining outside, both things that I believe play a roll in my aches. My mother used to be able to predict a thunderstorm a day before it happened because her knee would hurt her. Maybe I've inherited that little talent.

I didn't work out all weekend. Ugh. I want to go tonight, except if I feel tonight like I feel right now, I can't even imagine it. I'm sure it would make me feel better.

It's almost Easter. Yahoo!!! I love dyeing my easter eggs because I usually do my own dyes that I made from different foods. Natural dye.

Ok, things are getting out of hand here and my dogs are driving me insane! More later...not that this isn't long enough!!