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(Note: I am currently using WiFi because my internet is down. Oh, and, I’ll be camping for Memorial Day weekend and there is no electricity, let alone internet, so I will be computer and blogless for 4 days. Also, if you follow my facebook, I’ll still take the pics, but they won’t get posted until I get back.)

(Another note: Smiley faces were lost in translation, and are now just "J". Weird huh? So the random J's are actually smiley faces that I don't want to go back and correct.)

So, it’s been awhile. Mostly due to technical difficulties. Partly due to time constraints.

We are leaving tomorrow for camping. It’s our first camping trip as a family. And, there will be no electricity. No laptop for 4 days. I will be twitching come Monday. But I’m excited, and it’s actually a little frightening, how organized I am. I have lists and more lists. I love making lists and checking things off as I accomplish them!

In other news…

Pawn, has pretty much moved in. So far, she’s great. There’s a comfort in her. And, in past relationships, I would see certain things that I didn’t like, and I would always think, “well, maybe they’ll come around?” but then they just never did. I haven’t had that with her so far. There’s nothing about her that just rubs me the wrong way. And, I usually always find something to complain about! J (Edit: There is one thing…she talks…a lot. A lot. A whole whole lot. Hehe.)

She hasn’t officially moved in. She still has her apartment in Troy. But she’s here just about every night. She and Magnum talked today about her paying us for rent, instead of renting her apartment. It’s a big step, but if I look at it from a practicality point of view, instead of a relationship point of view, it’s not so dramatic. Of course, we had considered Mist moving in before, and we are both so glad we dodged that bullet. I hate to compare the two, but Pawn has it ALL over Mist. There’s a comfort in her that I never even came close to with Mist, even though I tried like hell. And, I never feel like Pawn is trying to get past me to get to Magnum. She’s a very good equalizer.

I know that her actually moving in is going to change the whole dynamic of our family. The Magnum & Me time will be limited. How will it effect the kids? I mean, I don’t think it would be negative, but we won’t know that until we are already in to it. (Pawn and Lee definitely get along well!!!) And, we’ve only known her for a few months. But again, it goes back to the practical side, instead of the romantic side. And, then I think about holidays and how her being here will impact things. There’s definitely a lot to consider.

And, then there’s the family. Like, will we have to eventually tell people we are poly? Or do we just let them think what they like? I’ve never been one to feel as though I have to explain myself or my situation to anyone. And, there’s that fear that family won’t be so happy with the idea, and might not want us around so much. But, if the family is like that, then I would consider it their loss.

And, does it stop with Pawn? She and Magnum have had the “exclusive” talk. She and I have not. She and Magnum have agreed not to see others. She and I have not. I am poly. I don’t think I’ve ever even considered not dating anymore. I’m not very good at that. J As a matter of fact, a girl asked me out for Friday! J But of course, it’s the one Friday I will be out of town! She’s wicked cute though.

And, I’m gonna post this now, so I can ramble on about other stuff in a new blog.