Downer.

I need to put something here, although I don't really know what to put.  I want to say something happy or witty, but I'm just not feeling it.

Every year is the same, over and over, nothing changing.  Somethings need to change.  But I dunno how.

I can't even write a happy list.  WTF is wrong with me?

I look around and all I see are my attempts and failures.  It's so frustrating.

Today is Teenager 3's 16th birthday.  She doesn't live with me...so enter feelings of failure.  It makes me a little sick in my stomach, that she's not here with me. 

And that's all I'm writing right now because it's just a downer fest up in here.