Knocking.

THIS WAS WRITTEN WEEKS, MONTHS AGO-just now hit publish tho.

Wow I am in a funk that I can not seem to dig myself out of.  It's worse than it's ever been.  Is it a midlife crisis? Seasonal Associative Disorder?  Menopause?  PMDD?  PMS?  WTF?

I'm having problems understanding the point.  I'm here, but I'm having trouble with my purpose.

My head aches just trying to comprehend and focus on anything.  Of course, my head has been aching for weeks.  So does my head ache because I can't focus?  Or can I not focus because my head aches?

I do know I'm tired of doing dishes and cleaning.  Fuck.  And I don't have an escape.  There's nothing that I have that's mine.  I need a sanctuary.   I need a room I can go into, lock the door, listen to my music and not have anyone bother me.  Yeah, right.  That's never going to happen.  I can't even piss without someone knocking on the door.