Eh.

So, I have been drug free for 3 days/nights now. Brace yourselves. :) I decided last week, that when I ran out of Ambien, I was going to not get it refilled. I also decided, to only take my PMDD meds, for the prescribed week of PMS, rather than for the whole month. I have semi replaced the PMDD stuff with St. John's Wort & Magnesium. I've also gone back to taking a vitamin daily.

My decision pivoted on a few different pros/cons issues. The Ambien, although I sleep like a log, leaves me feeling groggy. And, I think, it has become quite a crutch. I believe, that with a little discipline (shut up all of you people who know me...I can be disciplined...no not spanked...although...wait that's a whole different blog...) I can, through routine and various other calming concepts, learn how to sleep better at night. The PMDD stuff...well...the biggest issue I have with it...is it just kinda numbs me? I'm very Eh about a lot of things. And I think I'd rather be passionate or angry than Eh. And, sex? With the PMDD meds, forget about it. I went from being a very sexual being...to being Eh.

I don't wanna be Eh...so I hope this stuff works. :) And, in the meantime, if I seem a little snippy...don't hold it against me. :)

Note: I've been taking Prozac (the PMDD med) for 2 years now...and did not know it. WTF? I get the generic version...and no one ever mentioned it was Prozac. I only discovered this today when I googled the generic name from the bottle. Oy.