FairyTales.

AFTERNOTE:  Ha...I write and then before I publish I want to say something:    I write about her a lot, not because she's all there is, but because she's the hardest for me to process within my own head.  So I come here to write it out.  My life is good.  I'm not sitting in the corner sucking my thumb waiting for her extremely beautiful self to come and rescue me.  It's not like that.  Life is good.  It could just be a wee bit better, with her in it.  And, while I'm saying that, I'd also like to mention that she fulfills something in me, that Magnum doesn't, which makes me like Magnum more...if that makes any sense.  Like there's a hole (shut up pervs), that he tries to fill, but can't...and she does.  So with both of them in my life, I feel good.  Whole.  And, that is why I come here to write stuff like the following.  :)

She makes my arms feel good.  Isn't that odd?  Here's where that thought is coming from...

The past couple times I saw Skye, she was distant.  She says she's just taking things slow, and in the back of my mind I'm thinking "since when??"  I'm also thinking that it has less to do with taking it slow, and more to do with the other girl she's seeing.  I'd much rather her tell me the truth than to drag me along...ya know?

So, anyway, a couple nights ago I was wondering this:  What would it take for her to just go for it with me?  What could I say to her, or offer her, that would make her go, "Yes, let's do this.  Let's date exclusively and see how I like it."  Truth be told, I'm not sure there's anything I could offer.  But I think I would, if I could.  On the flip side of that, I'm sure that's also true with the other girl.  Here's the part that sucks to be me...Skye will pick the other girl.  I like to fantasize that she chooses me instead, but I know that's a fairy tale.  But don't we all kinda still wish, just a little, that fairy tales do come true?

I want to tell her she'd be choosing the wrong girl.  But, you can't do that.  In my head, I can see a future with Skye in it.  However, I think in her head, she barely sees me in her present.  And, I don't know the other girl. Maybe she's pure perfection and the best thing that could ever happen to Skye.  I personally don't believe that to be the case, just based on the basic knowledge I do have.  I also can't say that I'd expect anyone to think I'd be the best thing to ever happen to her.

Grrr.

So I drove by a house today...I thought wow, I love that house.  Then I saw it was for sale.  And my mind immediately starts imagining me and Skye living there together.  And it makes my arms feel good.