Begin?

Obviously I'm doing something wrong.  History keeps repeating itself with the same outcome.  I want history to repeat itself with a new outcome.

I'm still here, when I need to be there.

I'm still stuck in the same hole, still trying to dig myself out, and still failing miserably.

Hope keeps me afloat.  I'm not so sure I like hope these days.  Then again, if I didn't have hope to keep me afloat, I might drown in reality.

So, if I take all that is wrong, and write it down, do you think I could fix it?  Or do you think I'd simply look at the list, get overwhelmed and go back to bed?

It's time to do something different.  But where do I begin?