Occupied.

A really random blog...

New computer.  Not sure if I like it yet. 

I saw TWO at WalMart today.  Wow, she is fat.  I love it.  Mean?  Yes.  True?  Yes.

Skye has a date today.  I always think I'm prepared...and then it hits me like a bus.  I guess because it happens like this:  I text and say I'm freezing.  She says she'll warm me up.  I say, Hey, let me know when you are going to have a date so I can make sure I'm occupied while you're on your date (or something like that) and the next text I get is that she's on a date Now.  So...ya know...what do I do with that?  Do I stop texting her, so as not to bother her during her date?  Do I text her naughty little things to make her think of me during her date?  I hate it that I can text her anytime, and she texts me back...and then she's on a date and I feel like if I text her, I'm bothering her.  Like I'm some obsessive old woman who's chasing someone who doesn't really want to be chased. 

It's also hard for me to believe that after yesterday, she'd even want to spend time with anyone else.  She reminds me all the time that we aren't exclusive.  I get it.  But it's still hard for me to process.

The only answer, or resolution, I can come to is I'm in over my head.  I'm absolutely crazy about the girl but I'm afraid she's not so crazy about me. 

I went to the eye doctor yesterday and ever since then, my eyes has been hurting.  It's irritating the fuck out of me.