Weaverized.

Maybe she's just brilliant and she knows once I get something I stop wanting it?

Grrrr.

I think, for the most part, girls I've dated have been a comfort.  I was attracted to them on more of an intellectual level...and then the physical attraction happened.

With Skye it started out like "Dammit she's freakin' adorable I want!!!" so the physical attraction has been there from before I knew her name.  It is so strong...that it drives me insane. 

The other night, we were snuggling and I was looking at her neck, and ear...and good god...that was enough to almost send me over the edge. 

So I am wicked physically attracted to her. 

I told her I wish I could have her exclusively for just a wee little bit.  She's seeing others...as she has every right to since I'm married.  However, in the grand scheme of things, I don't care how good I am, or how fluttery I make her belly, when it comes down to it...she'll never choose me over a young, unmarried thang. 

She said if I was 15 years younger and not married I'd be her girlfriend.  Those things just bother the hell out of me.  Those lines that society has drawn really suck.  I especially hate that sort of thing when it comes from someone who's already living outside of the box in terms of societial norms.  20 years ago, it wasn't so accepted to be a lesbian, so I suppose 20 years ago the speech would have been, "If you were just a boy, you'd be my boyfriend." 

And, after having said ALLL of this...I also understand that if she's looking for a relationship, obviously I wouldn't be the best choice, as I am married.  But I'm not asking her to marry me.  :)  She's only 23.  She shouldn't be looking for someone to settle down with, she should be looking at me to have fun and lots of snuggles with, dammit!

I wish she'd give me 3 exclusive months...like a 90 day trial relationship.  After 90 days, if she's not fully weaverized, we could go our seperate ways.  :)