Worthy.

Tons of people go through this sort of thing.  I can and I will be fine.  Better than ever.

There's a huge part of me that hates to hurt people, even if they hurt me first (and multiple times).  I'm sure there's a psychological name for it.  But there's another part that thinks even tho he hasn't and will never admit it, I think he wants me gone.  I really do.  But he will make me feel guilty, and say all of these pathetic poor me things, and my guilt will be huge.

There was, in my inbox this morning, an excuse for the lie.  A pathetic took- all- night- to- think- up answer to the question.  Yesterday he put on this nice big act of "whatareyoutalkingabout?" like he had no idea where the text came from or how the number even got into his phone.

It's obvious he's still in contact with her and lieing about it.  If I'm not worthy enough not to be lied to, then what?