I don't know what to do. Seriously. I'm not comfortable not being in a relationship with someone, and being sexual with them. I guess it's the age thing.
I'm feeling a little used...I think.
In order for sex to be good for me, I have to have that connection.
I don't know what to do with her. I mean, we did what we did last night...and I found it outrageously sexy...but kinda empty. Like that's all I was there for...like there's just that. Like there isn't a relationship...just a booty call. Ha, yes I said booty call.
On the way home last night I was sure I didn't want to see her again. It's too much for me. She's sexy as hell...but I'm just not what she wants or needs. So I should stop now...right?
I was crabby to begin with last night...which worked out in her favor I think, because I was less lovey dovey wanna cuddle and more I wanna fuck. :)
And, I really don't like the time when we are apart. I kinda feel like when we are together she's incredible, but when we aren't together she's...eh about me.
I want her to love me. I know that sounds stupid and pathetic...but it would be awesome to see her in love.
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I have learned, through experience, to always follow your intution. If it doesn't feel right, it probably isn't. And sometimes walls are put up to block us from doing what we shouldn't...not to scale in order to get beyond.
Just trust yourself.
And everything will be all right.
:-)
Thanks! I need to just have fun and let it be what it is! :) But she's just so...irresistible.
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