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When do I catch a break?

WhatDoIDoWithIt?

A few months back (March 9th to be exact) I wrote about a girl (what's new right) and I said she was THE most beautiful girl I'd seen lately.  I wrote this:


"And, finally, during a writing assignment luncheon today (I felt so fancy), I saw THE most beautiful girl I've seen lately. I did some quick research and I know her name-but I can't freaking find her on facebook. It's just pissing me off." 


I tried to find her.  I got some basic info and then I found her on Linkedin.  I added her to my connections, but never messaged her or anything.


Last night, in the wake of Skye telling me she was meeting a new girl for coffee (blah), I sent this girl a message.


I woke up this morning to a reply.  And we've been going at it all day.  I asked her random questions, (favorite vegetable?, favorite color?, favorite food?, etc) and she answered them all.  Rapidly.  Like we were chatting ALL day.


I know she's gay.  I know she's hot.  Maybe a normal girl (and we all know I'm not) would know what to do with this girl, but I don't.  Do I just let it be what it is and stick to linkedin messages?  

I think if she was a man I'd know what to do.  But, give the person a fucking vagina and I'm lost like bo peeps sheep.  


Let it be.  Let it be.  Let it be.  I think Let It Be will be the name of my first book.


Oy.  So I totally  just left this page, went backed to Linkedin and gave her my number and told her to text me sometime.  Now I just have to wait for the reply that says "I would but my girlfriend and I are getting married next weekend, so, no."  


Grrrr.

Verge.

I'm very irritated.  I'm having issues.

I want to be happy.

Happy just isn't my friend.

What do I need to do to make me happy?

I'm on the verge of change.  Always on the verge.

Blue.

If nothing else, she's predictable.

Kinda like the weather.  Sometimes the sky is dark, or cloudy, or sunshiney.  Sometimes there's a rainbow, sometimes there's thunder.

But it always comes back to blue, doesn't it?